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Wasco, CA, 11-12-07

Wasco, CA 11-11-07

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Wasco, CA 10-30-07

Dear sweet Valerie,

today I finally received my envelopes from Ventura so I can write again to you and katia :)
It may seem little but communicating with you, also if in a one way kind of way fills my heart with joy!
I also received your letter from the 24th (the one with 10 stamps inside), so I know that you had receiving my letters from mercy. And that comforts me even more because I've been able to be near to you and because my accounts on what was happening have been (or will be) posted for people to know.
By the way did you send Katia also my accounts in english to you or did you post them? I think that right now the quantity of info in english (and other languages) should be increased, but let my go by step so you'll understand why! yesterday (the 29th) I got called to the program office around 9 am and the sergent marvelled at my being barefooted; he asked me why then got my size and fetched a pair of shoes for me after five days! :S
I couldn't even start being happy at having some shoes that they called me again to go at visiting because the italian conusle was here with Enrica to visit me: sholud I add anything? But maybe it was just a coincidence! ;) I spoke with them an hour complaining also about the envelops and not being able to write (and the bible too) And today I got miracously my poor properties from Ventura...shocking, eh? Btw as usual they took the hard cover out of the bible and the benedetto XVI book and they broke the bible as You can see form the attached map.. :(
the most important thing is I can write , you can wrte me too ( ) and they told me it's only a layover, so I'm not gonna being here 6 months. the c.o that gave me some sheet say at least 2/3 weeks , Enrica said sooner than that, bu you know, how it is :S
The guard and the person at mercy made me understand they had seen the website. The guard that took me here said something like: "so you're famous, they tell me", to star talking with me; even the guard that took me to the visit yesterday asked me question for 15 minutes afterwards!!! Maybe it's time to increase the efforts to penentrate english blogs and the us/ uk media, especially using the pictures report and the press conference communicate ( I'm dying to see it myself!:S)

Write me soon please and bring me some joy in this grey hell...

I love you, Carlo

Ps: as usual try to get this posted in english, please :)

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Wasco, CA 10-28-07

Dear Sweet Valerie,

As you can see I am again in my preferred hell and unfortunately things are not going really well at all :(

I am sorry I didn’t write sooner but I had no writing material at all when I got here on the 25th, the only thing I had with me was a letter I wrote for Enrica at the consulate and that Mercy’s personnel suggested me to post from here so it would leave Friday instead of tomorrow ( Monday ); so I added some explanations for her and asked her to fore ward them to you and Katia to alert both of you.
But let me tell you about this latest misery of mine…Thursday the 25th they discharged me from Mercy ordering me a follow up CT scan in 8 weeks (December 25th); they put me in a paper jump suit with grey socks and they took me to Wasco shoeless and in shackles! I got here at 2pm and waited until 5 to talk with a Doctor and update him on my status. After that they took me here in facility B, building 1 (A -217L) but without finishing the receiving procedure they started on the 10th before sending me to Mercy: They didn’t give me clothes or linens or shoes and to my dismay none of my poor properties from Ventura ( the bible and envelopes, stamps, paper and pencils to write you :( ). As I told Enrica I was hoping to be taken to R&R to get it all the following day but all I got the following day was one towel to shower…I agree that rapists deserve to walk around shoeless in paper jumpsuit and sleep in bare mattress but I was hoping to get lucky :(. After 3 days (yesterday) a nicer guard, moved to pity gave me some clothes and linens but still no shoes or properties; today it’s all closed in R&R (Sunday) so I’ll try again tomorrow ( 5th day :( ).
The only “Good Thing” is that the same nice guard told me I am in “layover” status and in this period people get shipped to the final destination in anything between 2 and 3 weeks….it’s a long time shoeless and without being able to even write you but it’s better than 6 months! My “celly” is a portorican transgender called “Nicole” and I’m using his paper, envelope and pensil ( I’m also reading one of his books :( ). Unfortunately he’s indigent so I’m not gonna be able to borrow more and I’ll have to wait for you and Katia to help me before being able to write again: can you send me paper, envelopes and stamps like you use to ( I also asked Enrica btw) ? If Katia can send me money by the 31st I can fill in a ducat on the 1st and shop on the 9th, but maybe by then I’ll be 1 or 2 week from living…for sure I need something to read, so please tell Katia to buy me something ( I’ll write her too, but pls tell her). Maybe she can include “Cry to Heaven” by Anne Rice so I’ll donate it to “Nicole” when I leave to thank him, ops, THANK ‘HER’ :). All in all I’m miserable, I still have bruises from the ankelcuffs chaining me to the bed, my hands shake like and hold man with Parkinson ( and shoeless :( ) And I am to know about the pictures analysis, police and FBI investigation ( death treath and “documents”) And press conference :( please send me info :(

Love,
Carlo

PS = Please send also this to Katia so it can be posted also English for people to know what I am going through!!

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Bakersfield, CA 10/24/07

Dear sweet Valerie,
yesterday they clamped my draining tube again to check for air licks and it looks like the air is gone. So this morning, after some x rays the lung specialist come to take the tube off. Fortunately this procedure has involved a lot less pain than putting it in: they took away a couple of stitches, had me breathe out, and voilà! The tube was out with just a little bit of pain to the chest. The lungs expert says that tomorrow they’ll do another x ray (I am trying to get on the guinness of records: and if every thing is fine they’ll ship me back to my preferred hell: wasco!).
I don’t know if it has been a good idea to forfait the surgery but for sure it would have been horrible with the way they treat me here!
Let me explain with an example: after taking out the tube I had to take a shower (they didn’t let me 2 days ago) and the expert told the nurse to let me go and change the dressing after ward because it would get wet for sure!
This happened this morning immediately after breakfast! Well, I pressed the buzzer and explained that the dressing was “gone”, I asked the guards and the nurses, before lunch during and after, I only got a new dressing now that is almost dinner but there’s even more: I realised that they forgot one stitch and the nurse couldn’t find the surgical scissor so she told me she'll take it off later…
Wanna bet that I will carry it with me to Wasco?
During a brief chat with a guard, today, one that has been left curious by my web site, she inadvertently admitted that she checked my charges (and they should never do it) and that she considered me a “pig”, obviously before reading more about me!
This is what sometimes I try to explain to everybody, this for me is not simply “prison”: the guards here are trained to make people suffer, not to “correct and rehabilitate” the more when it comes to vicious criminals like rapists or child molesters, exactly like me.
I will try to write down the details of this little “chat” to Katia to see if it may help to let people finally understand the situation in which I am, and may be also help to push for some kind of solution to get me transferred to a decent place or at least to let “politically” know to these torturers that I am innocent!!!
I guess I am also a little bit scared about going to Wasco where I’ve been
assaulted 2 times in just 6 months and where I spent so many desperate days
like the one stuck with the bipolar lunatic…. remember him?
I hope you’ll come to visit soon but if you can’t don’t worry too much …. I’ll write you as soon as I can (if they give me the envelops I had left in Ventura) and you, please, do the same and send me some paper, envelopes and stamps.
Try to see if you can print out some updates from Katia 2 the web on pictures, investigation and press conference and remind Katia I need book and a little bit of money for coffee and shower shoes (you should see the filt there).
Love you.
Carlo

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Bakersfield 10-17-07

After the biopsy

Dear sweet Valerie,
the surgeon of this second biopsy was very comforting (and completely in disagreement with the lung expert)! He explained me that the other time they took 2 samples but because of the results he is convinced they missed the spot.
He affirms that it is absolutely important to know what we are dealing with and comforted me by telling me he has a 95% success rate in this biopsies.
He has taken the sample from the front this time (on the pectoral, I was so scared) and has immediately commented that he was sure he got the nodule. Let’s hope well and let’s hope the warm feeling he gave me is not just an impression.
Now we have to wait for the result but I hope that in the meanwhile Katia and Enrica will let a doctor see my descriptions and my records form the hospital so he‘ll be ready to help me with a decision…
Ask Katia to try and figure out how I can rely the results of this biopsy and get a decision from her and the doctor quickly without having the guys here loose their patience!
I’m sorry for the half page but I’m out of material (and they don’t give me any) :(
Thank you, Carlo

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Bakersfield, CA 10/11/07

Dear Sweet Valerie
I am trying to reach you but I am not sure if I remembered the address right … still I needed to try!
I am at the Mercy Hospital here in Bakersfield, chained to a bed in an isolation room and I need you to call Katia and the consulate to let them know what is going on.
Please do it soon because I am going to write a letter also to Katia but I am not sure if metered letter will make it to Italy and no matter what it will take one week at least!
Yesterday (Wednesday 10 tm) Ventura decided to ship me to Wasco with a mask, on a normal transport instead of letting me have the 2 nd spit test (of the 3 I was supposed to get) to rule out tbc.
Wasco did another X-ray and showed me a spot on top of the right lung that caused the scare for tbc (Ventura did the X-ray to check if I really needed the Abuterol that they took away from me) and sent me here at Mercy hospital.
Yesterday I did X-ray; CAT scan with dye and spit test and this morning the doctor told me that probably it’s not tbc but they need to check the spot with a biopsy.
Of course there is a change it is cancer :(
The nurse just told me not to eat or drink that means they will probably do the biopsy tonight!
I cannot even begin to describe you my feelings! I’m here waiting for a biopsy to tell me if I have lung cancer and I‘m kept chained to the bed by both feet and without even the comfort of family and friends :(
Or at least the warmth of a nice bottle of Chianti :).
I‘m scared and keep crying out of God why is he making me suffer all this? But there’s nobody to wipe out my tears so I guess it doesn’t really matter.
I don’t know if you can get in touch with me writing here and by then I may be back to Wasco.
For sure you can check there to get my cell, write or visit once they take me back there.
I don’t even know why they sent me again to that living hell :( instead of straight to Avenal? I’ll keep waiting and hoping to ear from somebody, especially because I am dying to know something about the FBI investigations and the press conference next week…
When they tell me the results of the biopsy I‘ll try and write again (assuming I got the address right – they stripped me of every thing including your address, again) :(
I love you, Carlo

P.S. the wonderful and aboundand foods of Ventura got me down to 178lb, I look great :(
P.P.S: change of orders: I can eat and drink so the biopsy must be tomorrow :(