Bakersfield, CA 11/10/07
25/11/07 19:45
Dear Sweet Valerie,
I am trying to reach you but I am not sure if I remembered the address right … still I needed to try!
I am at the Mercy Hospital here in Bakersfield, chained to a bed in an isolation room and I need you to call Katia and the consulate to let them know what is going on.
Please do it soon because I am going to write a letter also to Katia but I am not sure if metered letter will make it to Italy and no matter what it will take one week at least!
Yesterday (Wednesday 10 tm) Ventura decided to ship me to Wasco with a mask, on a normal transport instead of letting me have the 2 nd spit test (of the 3 I was supposed to get) to rule out tbc.
Wasco did another X-ray and showed me a spot on top of the right lung that caused the scare for tbc (Ventura did the X-ray to check if I really needed the Abuterol that they took away from me) and sent me here at Mercy hospital.
Yesterday I did X-ray; CAT scan with dye and spit test and this morning the doctor told me that probably it’s not tbc but they need to check the spot with a biopsy.
Of course there is a change it is cancer :(
The nurse just told me not to eat or drink that means they will probably do the biopsy tonight!
I cannot even begin to describe you my feelings! I’m here waiting for a biopsy to tell me if I have lung cancer and I‘m kept chained to the bed by both feet and without even the comfort of family and friends :(
Or at least the warmth of a nice bottle of Chianti :).
I‘m scared and keep crying out of God why is he making me suffer all this? But there’s nobody to wipe out my tears so I guess it doesn’t really matter.
I don’t know if you can get in touch with me writing here and by then I may be back to Wasco.
For sure you can check there to get my cell, write or visit once they take me back there.
I don’t even know why they sent me again to that living hell :( instead of straight to Avenal? I’ll keep waiting and hoping to ear from somebody, especially because I am dying to know something about the FBI investigations and the press conference next week…
When they tell me the results of the biopsy I‘ll try and write again (assuming I got the address right – they stripped me of every thing including your address, again) :(
I love you, Carlo
P.S. the wonderful and aboundand foods of Ventura got me down to 178lb, I look great :(
P.P.S: change of orders: I can eat and drink so the biopsy must be tomorrow :(